I know it’s been a while since my last entry of the TRP Shuffle Around life, but if you’ve been keeping up with me via Social Media you know I’ve been off the map and enjoying the good life. Europe was amazing but traveling from within pre-Brexit was not entirely easy. I look forward to returning to some spots hopefully in the distant future.
What you don’t see however is the behind the scenes work that not only goes into my daily routines but some of the side projects I’ve been building since I’ve last shared about my life.
To begin, one of the critical decisions I made in my life is to leave a job of stability. Although I learned and established myself at a place, I knew there was more to the world that I wanted to grasp. I made the conscious decision to leave for reasons that I’d like to keep to myself. I learned a lot (both personally and professionally) but I knew it was my time to go. In a previous podcast episode we discussed life transitions (for you 20-30 year olds, you might want to take a listen). There are several transitional periods for me that are occurring at the moment:
- Transition of Work
- Transition of Household Role
- Transition of Purpose
Let’s start with work…
It was a difficult decision but leaving work was the best thing that ever happened to me. I came from the school of thought that you shouldn’t quit no matter what. However to have the opportunity to finally quit without any strings attached seemed too good to be true (initially). In the days leading up to my departure, I made peace with everything that was bottled up inside. For anyone going through this currently, you will feel a piece of ownership lost. Fear not, because that sense of renewal is right around the corner and sometimes in places you least expect.
During my time away from the office, I wanted to re-align with what mattered most to me and that was my health (and loved ones). There are two forks in the road that will determine the next 10-20 years of my life. I’ve come to the conclusion that once these decisions are solidified, it is the point of no return.
Which leads to a significant piece of the puzzle I’ve left out, the support pillars in one’s life. I don’t care if you have a vast network or nobody to rely on. At some point, we’ll all need help and one of the biggest blessings is to have someone to support you at critical moments like these. Without my current girlfriend, a few friends and some living family left, I don’t know what would happen next.
When you’re so used to your daily routines to point of ad nauseam, you can’t really fathom what an alternative reality would actually look like. I have to count my blessings and even there was a certain point where I wanted to give up a key part of who I was, even those you least expect would give you a sign to press forward:
When you grow up, you will have many changes of this role. One of them at some point will be head of household. You will realize how much of a burden it is to become an adult, a working one, occasionally short changed, and probably overworked. In some cases this role change is applied to your family dynamics. For my own, it shifted drastically in a matter of months. It took getting used to but I feel at peace with where I’m currently at. I’m taking a day at a time, to do my part and work towards contributing to the overall mission of the household.
Purpose: It isn’t always obvious, you will weave in and out of whatever you deem as “purposeful” in your life. Sometimes your guiding north can be deceiving, in that what once provided you purpose slowly created burden (or depression). Similarly to the work stuff, purpose was slowly being removed from my life in an interesting manner. You feel less human or rather less of a cog, but then you also don’t feel fulfilled even when you hav no more levers to push. We all feel a certain way, when purpose evolves or strays away from our core identity. For myself, I will hold onto this creative side of purpose. l know this part of my writing, may seem cryptic, weird, and probably unorthodox. However that’s what this article theme is served up for, a shuffle, into hopefully something greater…